Posted by Quintal on September 20, 2007, at 12:10:20
In reply to Re: Does Anyone Else Have a Disordered Personality » pegasus, posted by Quintal on September 20, 2007, at 11:46:17
I should add that I think I swing between the two subtypes:
"Gabbard suggested NPD could be broken down into two subtypes[14]. He saw the "oblivious" subtype as being grandiose, arrogant and thick skinned and the "hypervigilant" subtype as easily hurt, oversensitive and ashamed.
He suggested that the oblivious subtype presents a large, powerful, grandiose self to be admired, envied and appreciated, which is the antithesis of the weakened and internalised self that hides in a generic state of shame, in order to fend off devaluation, whereas the hypervigilant subtype, far from fending off devaluation, is obsessed with it, neutralising devaluation by seeing others as unjust abusers."
In real life I'd say I behave in the hypervigilant subtype 'style':
"whereas the hypervigilant subtype, far from fending off devaluation, is obsessed with it, neutralising devaluation by seeing others as unjust abusers."
But put me in front of a keyboard, and I tend to behave in the oblivious subtype style (but I'm not really oblivious):
"He suggested that the oblivious subtype presents a large, powerful, grandiose self to be admired, envied and appreciated, which is the antithesis of the weakened and internalised self that hides in a generic state of shame, in order to fend off devaluation."
Which might be a sign of my borderlines traits? At times I feel utterly lost, have no sense of self at all, which is a sign of BPD. I've read that traits of NPD are a sign of recovery from BPD, because it shows the emergence of a sense of self. At times I wonder if any human being has ever felt like this before. I think my peers were quite accurate in their diagnosis "freak of nature" than any sprawling and elaborate psychodynamic explanation is likely to be. Just mother nature performing one of her 'innovative' experiments, see if I sink or swim, just testing the success of these traits in the human gene pool. I suppose it's up to me to bear my burden lightly.
Q
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