Posted by Happyflower 1 :-) on September 19, 2007, at 21:48:42
I would love to keep in touch with babblemail or email with my friends here. But as far as the boards go, I think it is better I just leave for awhile. I will keep my babblemail on for a couple of weeks
I really don't know what I have done to anyone to make them so upset with me that they want me to eat the sh*t sandwich of abuse I suffered as a child. but whatever I have done, I am sorry, I didn't mean to hurt anyone.
But I can't feel safe if I am told to eat my child abuse sh*t sandwhich of the past. To me there wasn't anything worse in my life than what I went through as a child, and to wish that on somebody, feels so cruel to me. Let happyflower's mother burn her flesh with lightbulbs, eat puke, and whip me until I am bruised, well I can't be somewhere that wishes for me to live that again. I would rather die than to live that abuse again. But I guess my own mother thought I was sh*t, so why should anyone else feel different. I feel sick, I feel overwhelmed with sadness that I can be hated so much.
I just don't feel I need this extra stress on top of the trauma work I am starting next week, so I guess it is better to stay away for now. It is hard enough to have to think about those memories, but for it to be wished upon me again, I just don't feel safe anymore here.
poster:Happyflower 1 :-)
thread:784035
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