Posted by RealMe on September 18, 2007, at 23:24:16
In reply to Re: a new twist to therapy today **trigger** » RealMe, posted by Dory on September 18, 2007, at 8:23:20
I know what you mean about the differents sides of ourselves. People at work know me as confident and poised and capable and as someone who can hold her own on the stand in court when an attorney goes on the attack. I don't get rattled. I actually enjoy the challenge.
Then there is the me in therapy who starts crying and acting like an idiot in my terminology. I don't like for my T to see I am like that, and when I think about it, then I say to myself "How silly; if I acted like I do at work and actually felt that way (because it is not an act at work) in therapy, then what would be the point of therapy. I would be pretty fine I think. I was at a church board meeting tonight, and there I am the old confident me too. But I also joke around when things get tense and try to keep things from exploding when at meetings like this. So there is another side of me. The confident work person, the joking lets not go crazy here one at a meeting, and the insecure, do I really have to go into that stuff person in therapy. Then, of course there is how I am with my husband--loving sometimes, telling him to go to hell sometimes or saying fine, lets get a divorce or any other number of emotions. He likes to play practical jokes on me, and after years of marriage, you would think I would catch on. Nope. I am still a sucker for him to pull one over on me. He likes that, and I have to laugh too.
Re dream about therapist, unfortunately it is nothing all that juicy. I just remember we stood up together, and I grabbed him and hugged him and started to kiss him, and he responded (which I know would never happen in a million years, thank god). The kissing and fondling let to laying on the floor and starting to have intercourse, and then I woke up. Damn. I didn't even get to enjoy it. Instead I woke up in a cold sweat and thought, "Ain't no way I am telling him about this one for now." Yikes. Maybe that is why last week I saw penises everywhere on the carpet; you think??? HUM.
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