Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 29, 2007, at 19:04:02
My T was away last week, and I did some major decision making in his absence. I applied for a post-doc training program and it starts TOMORROW!
I was SO worried about whether he would approve. What's the matter with me? Why should I care about whether he approves? My life, not OUR life.
I could hardly sleep last night. I told T and kind of caught him off guard. I like doing that. I like to knock em off their chairs every now and again. Mission accomplished. He looked pretty surprised, and then he was very supportive and said he thought I'd do a great job. It's kind of crazy, because I will be changing my career trajectory pretty drastically.
And I went to work at the coffeeshop my first day. I had paperwork training, and learned mission statement and other gunk. Then I had to learn how to clean up after myself. Then I was on the "cold drink station" The cups kept lining up. It was a hot day. iced tea, frozen coffee drinks. all kinds of variations on mocha, vanilla. HeLp!!!
To tie this back to therapy- I told T and he warned me that he goes there sometimes. uh oh. I'd be terrified to spill coffee on him!!! and then he said that I was doing really well to be able to work a 6 hour shift without crashing (I wanted to crash about hour 4.5 but stuck through it)
Wish me luck tomorrow.
-Ll
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