Posted by Happyflower on May 4, 2007, at 20:23:06
He was really great with me. I told him how stressed out I have been with school. I am trying so hard to do well and now I feel I have to prove myself to myself that I can do it. But maybe I have too high of expectations of myself. But I keep achieving , but it is making me a basket case. I hate to see what grad school is like.
He told me that it is understandable how stressed I am because I have a lot going on and finals is just one of those stressful times. But I need to find another way to vent my stress. Exercise didn't help this time, it just made me even more tired and exhausted. My family doctor finally gave me some Xanax, and it works well, especially before my final exams. I was still able to think clearly and didnt' have my mind go blank. I am looking forward to seeing if it will help me musically when I have to perform next week. I think it will still work for me because I only take it once in a while.My T seems to really understand me, I think we are so alike in a lot of ways. My family doctor said I will still want to achieve in school, so that won't go away (which is good), so I just need to learn how to deal with excess stress. Sex used to be a wonderful vent, but I don't have that anymore.
I asked my T if he thinks I can live the way I am , without anyone special in my life, because I said my life sucks. Well he said I have a lot of good things going in my life and life isn't a sh*t sandwich. He is right, but I just yearn for someone to love me and to love someone in a romantic way. I miss that. But he said I am doing what is best for me right now, so it was nice for him to remind me of that. He looked so sad when he said that.
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