Posted by wishingstar on April 28, 2007, at 12:50:18
In reply to Re: I'm back, posted by TherapyGirl on April 28, 2007, at 12:18:38
Regarding the new guy, it's definitely becoming a pattern. I was very upset about something a few nights ago at his place (had nothing to do with him) and crying (rare for me), and he sat and watched me cry from across the room for about an hour untl I finally got up and left. I just spoke to him about the dog thing and he definitely sounded annoyed that I'd say it and didnt apologize, wasnt at all understanding. Everything is always about him. It hurts.
I had an okay morning. I've been up about 2 1/2 hours now. Crashing. Maybe I should think about going back to the hospital, but why? I really dont see a reason to do it. I just need someone to be here, to care, to hear me... but every moment feels like it's just impossible to get through. It's just not worth it. I can try and do the "right thing" over and over... see friends, be social, dont isolate, be honest with how i feel... but it always just ends up hurting even more. I just want to crawl under my desk. My T said I could page her this weekend if I need to but why? Nothing she can say that hasnt been said 50 times.. and we've talked outside sessions at least once every single week for awhile now. I need to leave her alone.
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