Posted by kerria on October 22, 2006, at 9:51:39
In reply to Re: Now T emailed with his address. tears » kerria, posted by muffled on October 21, 2006, at 2:56:02
Thank you so much Muffled for understanding and it helps so much that you hear and care. Thank you.
i don't know my parts well- there's not a way to communicate - T is the one who talks to us and we listen to what parts say. the less i see T the worst mess we are sometimes. When things are upset it gets even harder to communicate. i don't even know my parts-
The pain i'm having now is so triggering now- we ran out of some of the meds i take and parts inside feel that we've just been p'a' and s'a' today. That a. is going on now.
i can't communicate with them and times have occurred that we've been suddenly so upset because of the pain of a.It's a nerve probleem- not abuse. i try to remember but when we switch we're hysterically sad and there's nothing i can do.
we're not doing well now- we need T to be supportive. h is away now- that's so hard. i have to talk to a surgeon soon- how can i do that when parts are so upset inside?
T knows and doesn''t care thaat we're upset- or why wouldn't he call back unless he didn't want me. i feel so rejected- not even me- my parts that i can't communicate with feel so rejected by T and so hurt- and that no one will be with them and why do they have to have all this pain - they don't understand the surgery, it feels like a punishment. i know better but switching comes and what's there is a mess.
i'm too afraid of falling apart:(
kerria
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