Posted by muffled on September 24, 2006, at 23:38:50
In reply to Re: Dear Dr. » muffled, posted by Susan47 on September 24, 2006, at 23:15:19
Susan, you love your son, thats all important.
There's those that don't give a flying f*ck bout their kids. You do care. Thats good.
As for phone calls. They not shameful. Your hurting. Reaching out in your agony. Thats not shameful, thats fear and being sick.
Your not bad Susan, just screwed up right now.
But its not irreparible.
You can get better.
Oftentimes you are very clear and coherant and well spoken.
Sometimes you spin out some.
So do I.
Am I hateful and awful?
My T has helped me to better understand that stuff some.
Still don't fully get it. But its sinking in. Slowly.
I am SURE I have hurt my chuldren. Psychologically scarred them, and it breaks my heart.
And so I am trying SO hard to do better for them. To make up for past damage.....
I don't think I necessarily 'bad'. I starting to realize its more like a sickness, like my alcoholism is.....
Keep at it Susan,
You get there,
Muffled
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