Posted by llrrrpp on August 27, 2006, at 20:45:23
In reply to Re: meltdown (sooo long) **triggers » ElaineM, posted by gardenergirl on August 27, 2006, at 20:04:26
Yep, I agree with gg and annierose.
When I read these latest interactions with your T, the first thing that comes to my mind is: How wicked. Seriously, evil.
Elaine, you want to get away. You might not know it now, but you WANT to get away. You feel it in your heart that this is all wrong. Your body is telling you- you're anxious, you're terrified, you're hurting. This is not the way our bodies feel when we're in love. When we're in love, or have a crush, we feel lighter, freer, more joyous. Don't let this T get you entangled in a romantic relationship. You have this opportunity RIGHT NOW to make a promise with yourself. Tell yourself that tomorrow- Monday- you will very calmly seek out a new T. You will go to see this T and tell him/her that you had to terminate with the last T because he was making you feel more anxious than before when you started. That you didn't connect very well in terms of a therapeutic relationship, and that you need a fresh start, because you're in bad shape.
No need to get your ex-T in trouble. The MAIN THING is to get yourself, the Elaine that we have all grown fond of, OUT OF TROUBLE.
So. block all the e-mails from you T, or route them to a folder that you won't check until you're healthy and distant. Right now, you're just too entangled.
Listen to your heart. It feels wrong, because it is wrong. Your responsibility is to use therapy as a tool to make you feel stronger, healthier, and more able. Do the responsible thing, and find a therapeutic situation that will allow you to fulfill your responsibility as a mental health client. If you're resisting his approach, and you've given it a fair shot, you should start over again.
((((((((Elaine)))))))))
keep posting. this stuff with Scott and your ex-T deserve more air-time. You will need to find someone you trust, and who respects you enough to listen carefully to your past. Try to put your pieces together so that you can begin to heal.
more hugs,
-ll
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