Posted by littleone on August 21, 2006, at 21:46:43
In reply to Honesty **poss trigger**, posted by antigua on August 21, 2006, at 11:46:33
I'm glad you were able to be open and honest here with how you are coping with everything. I bet it took quite a bit of courage to be able to do that. I think it helps other people to help you when they know exactly how you are feeling. (Although I don't really believe that when it comes to me).
> The honest truth is that I don't really know what the heck I'm doing and I'm scared to death.
When I'm torn over a decision, my T tries to get across to me that the decision is not the be all and end all. That in the worst possible scenario, all it means is that you may have to make another decision a bit later on. eg say you decided to do this hypnosis and it went really badly for you, it just means that you have to decide how to handle the fallout from that and decide whether to keep proceeding with it.
It's not like you're locked in to doing the hypnosis forever. And if anything bad came up, it wouldn't affect you badly forever. It would just mean that you and your T would have to decide how to treat and incorporate anything that came up.
I'm certainly not trying to minimise your experience here. I just know that I tend to agonise over a lot of decisions and it helps me to know it's not set in concrete.
Also remember that whatever you decide will be right. You have all the info you can get on it now and you'll make a choice based on that. And if further info (or experiences) comes up down the track you may want to re-evaluate your decision. But it doesn't make your original decision wrong. Your original decision is right based on the info at hand at the time.
Not sure if any of that helps you.
> I have so much going on right now and I'm scared:
I can understand why you'd be scared. The stuff about your T and your son are both threatening situations. Your eating habits are a worrying trend and your pdoc thing is a scary pattern from the past.
I think you're right to be worried about these things. And I think it's good that you can see that these things are a threat to you.
I guess you just need to be extra aware of things that come up in relation to these situations and tackle them as they come up. Take good care of yourself so you have internal strength for the challenges coming up. If your T isn't available when you're having trouble, make sure you babble.
I guess a big thing with the pdoc is not to act on impulse. If you feel an impulse try to take note of it and take it away to think about rather than acting on it straight away.
If you need camp comfort while your T is away, make sure you ask. I'll be all to happy to join you there if you like.
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