Posted by pegasus on August 17, 2006, at 22:30:50
I'm being so stupid and annoying lately. My work situation really irritates me, and then I get all crabby, and do stupid things. Like today, I had an argument with the new woman at work, and then a therapy session and then a stupid meeting initiated by her where we all sat around and said, "uh, I dunno" and wasted our collective time. And then we had the company picnic, which I always stupidly go to, thinking it'll be fun, and it's just stressful.
And then my lovely family and I drove accross town to do an errand, and I forgot the address we were going to, and my husband got mad at me. And I *hate* it when he thinks I do dumb things. So I got all angry (at him and myself) and out of control, cause I agree that I was actually being pretty dumb, but I was mad at him for being mad at me about it. And while he went into the house to get the address, I SI-ed in the car, right in front of my daughter. I hope to god she didn't see what I was doing. But she definitely knew I was really upset.
So now I feel so stupid, and bad, but also annoyed at myself that I didn't hurt myself even worse. Does that make any sense? I'm so dumb sometimes.
That woman at work might have been right in our argument, by the way. I just didn't want to say so to her, because I really don't like her. Plus, I'm always willing to consider her point, but she's never willing to consider mine. I'm so stupid.
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