Posted by sunnydays on August 17, 2006, at 19:39:29
I miss my T. He's only gone for one week. I want to talk to him so much, but I don't want to call him. I don't think he'd mind if I did call, but I want to give him a break from me, so I don't think I'm going to. But I really just want to hear his voice, know he's alive, know he doesn't hate me, that sort of thing. And I just really miss him. I also have moved in the week since I've seen him (I'm in college, so I had to move to my new room) and my life just feels so discombobulated. And I think that the younger part of me is really scared that since I'm in a new place that I'm never going to see him again. He gave me a couple things he wrote for me in my last session that I've been reading a lot - they're sort of things I need to learn to believe for myself about myself - things like that I am not bad, and that I'm kind. They're not written from his perspective, they're all written as "I" statements for me to read to myself, but just the fact that he wrote them down for me means a lot to me. Anyway, I don't know what I'm going on and on about, I guess I just really miss him. And it doesn't help that my depression's been getting worse for a couple weeks now and now he's gone. Just a few more days, though. He comes back next week.
sunnydays
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