Posted by Karolina on July 13, 2006, at 23:24:09
In reply to so jealous..., posted by Karolina on July 12, 2006, at 22:06:53
Thanks you guys for your responses, I was feeling pretty angry/upset about all this.
Jost - Your words felt reassuring and you're right, talking out all of this with him (being really honest about how I feel)will be a good idea. Hopefully he will respond in a caring way, even if it isn't physical but at least in a way to make me feel better during the harder times.
annierose - I thought about what you said about your T. That's a really good way to look at it, that we hope our Ts care about their other clients because that is what makes them good therapists, but that they keep information about their other clients (or personal feelings towards them) out of *our* appointments.
He also has shared other information about clients, like told me about particular or severe issues they've had saying that I 'don't even compare' to them...it made me feel really awkward when he said that. And there are times when I think he has over-stepped some boundaries, even when he stares or looks at my body a certain way.
It's really strange but sometimes I almost wonder if he has become aroused, I notice particularly when we talk about sexual things, but his body language becomes different...like he will shift around in his chair and cross one leg so tightly over the other that it looks like he is trying to hide something, sits up straighter, strokes his chin or puts his hand over his mouth, like he is really focusing on me (like studying me) and narrows his eyes, staring straight at me... It's kind of hard to explain in words, but it's pretty weird.
caraher - that's a good idea to maybe simply ask for a (non-sexual) hug if the time feels right. I guess I just fear rejection in that situation. But thanks for reassuring me that I'm not a desperate moron! I really think I am looking for some kind of love/affection right now and you're right it's perfectly natural to want that from somebody, especially when we are in distress about something.
thanks everyone
-Karolina-
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