Posted by sleepygirl on July 6, 2006, at 21:49:49
In reply to An apology, explaination, and *child abuse trigger, posted by happyflower on July 6, 2006, at 13:43:04
I wish you wouldn't go...
there was a lot of pain and hurt to back up your reaction
I don't remember feeling offended about what you wrote about personality disorders. I imagine that it felt like someone tried to defend satan when the discussion turned to a particular personality disorder and the stuff got stirred up big time.
Happyflower, I don't think anyone in a trillion years would want to say that what you went through was not reprehensible and committed by someone who was seriously disturbed. The discussion went way beyond the theories though for you (IMO), and you know what? I don't think anything theoretical at that point could suffice to begin to understand your suffering. How can anyone understand that experience?? I can't make peace with it, so I don't know how you possibly could.
That was one heavy trigger switch- you didn't have to convince me though. I know people can do awful things. and no, there is no excuse for it. I hope you know that no one here would likely say that there is?
It was interesting to me how you said in that poem that you feel frozen, and how you seemed to say that dealing with that stuff felt like so much, too much. I can deal with people getting angry, saying stuff they regret, that's what the civility stuff is for- I say some wickedly inappropriate stuff sometimes, oh well, I'm not perfect...far from it.
anyway....just trying to say I'm sorry if you're feeling lousy and take excellent care of yourself.
love,
sg
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