Posted by serena11 on May 17, 2006, at 18:01:31
In reply to therapy as trauma?, posted by llrrrpp on May 17, 2006, at 15:42:59
> I've been doing really well for a few days now. But I'm starting to feel really anxious and worried about going to see T. Is it possible that therapy is another source of trauma? If so, when/how can I recover from it. I don't feel well at all. It doesn't make sense. T is nice enough. I have good news this week, since I'm feeling better. What gives? Does this fear & anxiety go away? Am I scared of ME? or scared of THERAPY? or scared of the UnKnowN?
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> There is a baby elephant stepping on my chest right now. pressure and discomfort.I don't know what your issues are, but my experiences have been that therapy stirs up a lot of strong emotions and especially fears. For me, some of them have been like the rather benign "monster" under the bed in children's books; coming face to face with them helped defuse their strength. Then other fears have been genuinely horrific, with good reason, and took quite a lot of effort to experience. But all of them were real and came with the process of healing. Then there were all the ambivalent and extremely strong feelings towards therapists, which again are hard but maybe not "bad." I think there could be good reasons that you feel unsettled. At least for me, it was a part of dealing with feelings I had unconsciously stuffed for most of my life. It's hard when they leak out, but it can be a good sign. But baby elephants are fairly heavy, aren't they? Hopefully this one will go on a walk for a while....
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