Posted by bent on May 1, 2006, at 12:09:28
In reply to x-plicit...sick thoughts *may trigger*, posted by Karolina on May 1, 2006, at 2:13:03
You bring up so many good points that might be affecting these thoughts. First of all, you are not sick. I absolutely love what my T once told me about troubling thoughts: "Thoughts arent right or wrong, they just are."
Remember that just because you have a thought doesnt mean its based in reality or that its something you desire. Our problems manifest themselves in many ways, and twisted thoughts are just one of them.
As for what to do....In my opinion I think you need to spill it all to your therapist. Maybe not all in one day but get it all out. The feelings about him, the incident in your past, the thoughts. You can do it. I had to write it to my therapist and then read it during the sessions. It was so hard. I felt like throwing up all day before the appointment, but afterwards it felt great. Like I could fly because I didnt have this weight, I didnt have to carry secrets around. Do you know the orientation of your T? psychodynamic? CBT? others? You may have mentioned in another post, i dont remember. You have a lot of heavy stuff on your plate. You'll feel good when you start unloading it.
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