Posted by Deneb on April 29, 2006, at 22:58:32
In reply to Re: Toronto meeting, posted by AuntieMel on March 21, 2006, at 9:49:22
I'm not anxious enough about this!
I think I should be. It's going to be very scary...lots of people, strange pdoc people walking around, asking us questions and talking to each other. Maybe reporters will be there taking notes. It's a large scary room, filled with lots of scary professional people. I'm not a professional. I'm just a lowly student, with little life experience.
People are going to see me and know I don't know what the heck I'm doing...that I'm scared and don't have experience in the professional world. No one will save me when things go wrong. I'll be standing there with possibly a small group of pdocs around me and I won't be able to speak and be sweating buckets of sweat. They'll all probably think, "Isn't this girl going to talk? Wow, this girl sure is messed up. Stop wasting our time!"
I won't be able to handle it and I'll stand there and close my eyes and pretend I wasn't there. Then everyone will think, "Wow, she's crazy." No one will save me. :-( I'll be all alone. Dr. Bob will probably think, "Wow, Deneb really ruined my presentation. How am I going to face my colleagues now?"
Yeah, Deneb, you ruined the presentation. I'll feel really bad and then I'll probably cower in a corner somewhere. Then people will stare at me and wonder why I'm there and what's the matter with me.
I really hope nothing bad happens. I hope none of what I describe is going to happen. I just don't know. It's been years since I've had to present something.
What is appropriate to talk about? What do I focus on? Am I going to sound like a freak if I say that Dr. Bob is a big part of Babble for me because I love him? Would it be a good idea to talk about how Babble has helped and at times harmed me? Would it be a good idea to then explain how Babble has reacted to my threats? Would that be focusing too much on me?
I can only talk about Babble from my unique point of view. Dr. Bob is a big part of Babble for me. My threats have been a big part of my experience with Babble too. Should I also talk about how Babble is the voice of reason for me? You guys really know how to think logically.
People are going to think I'm weird if I start talking about how I love Dr. Bob, aren't they?
Deneb*
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