Posted by TherapyGirl on April 24, 2006, at 12:40:02
In reply to Re: Help*************Trigger**********, posted by TherapyGirl on April 19, 2006, at 14:08:40
Just wanted to let you all know that I made it through the trip. It was actually okay -- one of my brothers was there, which helped a fair amount. I didn't sleep well Friday night, but that's nothing new.
I did enjoy the time spent with my cousins and other more distant relatives who I don't get to see very often, so I'm glad I went.
I ended up taking the little figurine of the bears hugging that my T gave me years ago for my birthday. Also, at Christmas, she had me write down a couple of sentences to repeat to myself about my mother and her idea of reality if I needed to. Both things helped a bunch.
And, of course, I got to see my T before I went. I don't know what I would have done if that hadn't worked out. Towards the end of the session, I asked her to sit by me (code for "hold me") and she did. A few minutes into it, she reached over and got the box of Kleenex and handed it to me. I sat up and laughed and said, "I'm NOT crying." Usually, once I sit up, she immediately moves back to her chair. Thursday, though, she stayed where she was, looked at me and said, "I don't know why your life is so hard." Apparently that's all it took -- I dissolved into tears and back into her arms. Sometimes it feels like I could finally be completely safe if I could just crawl inside her. Is that weird?
Thanks so much for the support. You all really helped me think through my options and prepare for the worst, hope for the best.
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