Posted by Susan47 on December 25, 2005, at 13:19:36
In reply to alcohol, posted by fallsfall on December 21, 2005, at 22:31:59
I didn't read all of your post fallsfall and I didn't read the rest of the thread yet, but to get this off my chest, I drink AND I smoke an illicit substance because it helps me control my mood. I mean, not control it so much, as change it. And I also tend to forget everything. Which, even though it's destructive, makes life more bearable for the time being.. and I know I'll suffer in some way for this in the end, I know I'll pay a price. My grandmother had Alzheimer's when she died. My mother is terrified of getting it, herself. And I'm wiping out a lot of my connections, or I feel that I am so I'm sure I must be. I don't know if it's temporary or permanent. I know it's a way of coping. I don't know a better one, I honestly don't.
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