Posted by orchid on December 22, 2005, at 20:49:07
In reply to Re: SI'ing (*****trigger*****) » littleone, posted by Tamar on December 22, 2005, at 20:28:29
On second reading of this, I also think that above everything the SI needs to be focussed on and attended to. It will end up being a vicious cycle if you don't stop it in the beginning.
There are some other ways to inflict pain on ourselves, rather than cut. For instance, you might try punching a bag hard. It will inflict some pain, but it won't leave you with shame and embarrasment and scars.
I once read, that in the olden days, people were regularly asked to walk on stones in bare foot. The idea behind that was supposed to be able to experience pain externally, so that you won't keep hurting inside. I think the idea behind SI is also pretty much the same - some way to experience the pain in a more manageable form than feeling absolutely clueless.
So trying to find a better way to experience the pain might stop the SI.
Do take care of yourself. I like you very much and it is hard to see you hurting yourself.
((Tamar))
> Hi littleone
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> > I might be reading this wrong (which is easily done in written forum), but I felt like you weren't giving this the credit it deserves.
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> That may well be true…
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> > I know from my own experience (and other experiences I've read/heard about) that SI'ing is addictive in a way and with repetition can easily become more severe.
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> I can imagine…
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> > Even though my SI was never "severe" in the sense that I required medical treatment, I still considered it severe in the sense that it was mentally dangerous if that makes sense. I was doing it more frequently and also cutting more often and deeper each time I did it.
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> I will watch and see if that happens to me. I’m pretty sure I cut deeper last time…
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> > I hope you are being very careful in these escalating aspects. And remember that it is very difficult to stop it once it has become a regular coping mechanism.
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> That’s true. So far, I do it only in response to one kind of situation. But if is gets worse I’ll try to deal with it.
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> > Sorry about this, but I don't want to see you hurt yourself (obviously physically, but also in the sense that it makes things harder for you later on).
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> Thanks. What you say makes a lot of sense. I think I’ll wait 2 weeks. If I SI in that time I’ll assume it’s above average (for me) and insist on a change in medication.
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> Many thanks,
> Tamar
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