Posted by gardenergirl on April 23, 2005, at 23:55:30
In reply to Re: My session yesterday, posted by annierose on April 22, 2005, at 21:13:15
> hi gg -
> I agree that you do sound less angry, but still frustrated. How are you feeling? It's so hard when they don't admit to having a part in the conflict ... even a tiny part.I am less angry, I think, but still confused and hurt. I think I finally figured out what the "what I want from him" was. I want to be soothed. And that is not at all what he would be likely to do. It doesn't fit the analytical model. I have to learn to soothe myself. But this one session has led me to hear from so many different parts of myself that have different ways of reacting to this. I think that's why how I am feeling or what I think about it seems to change everytime it comes up.
> Did you make a decision on going more frequently? I'm surprised that he is psychoanalyically (sp?) trained and never encouraged you to come more often earlier.
Actually, he has never suggested I come more frequently. It was my idea. Perhpas it just isn't what they do there? I don't know. I can hardly hold things in until Thursday, and actually, I may email him just to maintain contact, because it seems important to do that right now.> A week later, I am feeling warm and cozy again. So there is hope for all of us in T struggles. It's such an amazing process. Our brains are forging all these new connections and wanting MORE, MORE, MORE.
I'm so glad that you and your T worked things out and it led to something more. And I've been in that give me more, more, more phase.
>
> As a personal aside, I am in deep denial, and plunging into despair over the weather forecast of 2 - 4 inches of white stuff by morning and another 6 - 10 of snow in the evening! Seriously, I had all the boots and mittens packed away. Wasn't it just 80 degrees last week??It's snowing as I type this. Sigh. I used to hate spring for this very reason. It's such a tease. But I love it now since I started gardening. Of course I am still trying to decide if I should cover the Japanese fern I planted about two weeks ago.
Brrrrrr
gg
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