Posted by Susan47 on February 12, 2005, at 9:31:03
In reply to Re: I Miss Him So Much » Susan47, posted by gardenergirl on February 12, 2005, at 9:00:54
I'm reading "Love's Executioner" and of course it's resonating big-time, it's confirming what I already know .. that I've blended my identity with my ex-t because I can't find my own right now.
Truth is, I never had my own. Was uncertain where it lay. Whatever the reasons, I know this is something that immediately needs to be discussed when I see K on Wednesday, it can't wait at all. It's the first issue, before any sadness of any other sort gets addressed, this has to be worked on. It's something I've always done, running to something or someone rather than being with myself. The reason I've allowed myself to be so incredibly open and honest both with people on the boards and with my ex-therapist himself, is that I no longer want to hide my dependent feelings of love. I want to explore them fully so that I can correct them. I need to live MY life. I know I have one.
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