Posted by crushedout on November 12, 2004, at 17:23:19
In reply to Re: Glimmers of beyond ... what next? » crushedout, posted by Rigby on November 12, 2004, at 12:00:32
> I think you're doing great. And it seems like this is one you're gonna have to feel your way through, day by day--which you're doing now and doing well at.
Thanks, Rigby. Yes, I think you're absolutely right. I have to feel my way through, day by day, and that's what I've been doing, and it seems to be working. I kind of have to just take a leap of faith and trust that I'm going to know the right thing to do when the time comes to do it. Which is a little scary, but I don't have much choice. I can't rush it.
> My gut feel on seeing your first therapist is that, if you can stay away, the longer the better, it may help. I think time/distance can truly help. And it seems like you make better headway away from your first therapist. And seeing her again may undo that?
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> What do you think?Yeah, I think I agree. I think the break has done me good, and more break will do me more good. But I don't have to decide right now -- I can wait till Monday, after I see the other T and talk more about things. You never know what that will clear up for me in my head.
I *am* afraid that seeing her will undo the progress I've made, the perspective I've achieved, and throw me back into ambivalence, confusion, and uncertainty. Not to mention the pain and heartache and longing.
Now the question will be: how do I tell her? She's going to try to suck me back in, I'm pretty sure. By email or phone or whatever. Like she did last time. But we can address that question later, I guess, after I figure out for sure what I'm doing.
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