Posted by littleone on November 11, 2004, at 15:42:19
I get really obsessed over things, really impulsive too. When I started with my T, I thoroughly Googled him and found out he was the president of a sporting association. They have a website with heaps of pictures on it and I can kind of quietly follow his movements there. He knows this and I guess he's okay with it because he hasn't told me to stop doing it.
But now I'm in big trouble. I was in his waiting room the other day and he took a call from a guy doing some work on my T's house. Normally he'll close his door when he takes a call so people can't hear, but he didn't this time. During the call, he told the workman his home address.
EECK!!
I specifically didn't want to know this because I do find it so hard not to follow things up. I'd rather be left in the dark than have to resist myself.
And idiot me wrote it down. Not that it would matter - it was engraved on my brain as soon as he said it. And I've looked it up in the street directory and know where it is. And I Googled the address and a phone number came up.
DOUBLE EECK!!
And now I know I should throw them out, but I don't think it would help because I know exactly where to look them up on the net again. And I know I should tell my T, but ugh, he'll think I'm stalking him and ugh ugh ugh.
And I know I definately, definately should NOT go around there and I definately, definately should NOT try the phone number, and I won't at the moment. But I go up and down so much and so quickly. If I start feeling really unwell on the weekend, then I might cave in and drive by. Except he lives in a culdesac, so I'd probably draw attention to myself. Except I won't BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING ROUND THERE.
What to do, what to do.
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