Posted by alexandra_k on November 9, 2004, at 2:24:56
I get flashbacks and what I call 'mental pictures' quite a bit. Some of them are memories, but I don't think that all of them are. I also get stuck in what I call 'ruminations' which may or may not involve flashbacks but it is when I get caught up going round and round in circles in my head. All that is worse for me in the early morning and in the evening before I get off to sleep. Occasionally it gets bad during the day and I say I have a headache and have to go home to bed. Sometimes when it gets really bad I hear this really loud screaming in my head or my chest. It is all a bit hard to explain...
Anyway, last week I talked about one of the abusive relationships that I have been in with my T. I have never talked about it in so much detail to anyone. This week the ruminations and mental pictures have been worse. He said that he wanted me to tell him what I remember about finding my alters / voices next time and I had to connect with it emotionally. I figure he said that because I wasn't really connecting with what I was saying last week. But I must be connecting now for it to be affecting me, right?
I am thinking that maybe it is all moving a bit too fast. I have never done this before. I don't know. How do you tell the difference between working at therapy and just pushing things too hard?
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