Posted by corafree on November 6, 2004, at 15:33:56
In reply to Re: Ego states and brain research » Aphrodite, posted by daisym on November 6, 2004, at 13:16:51
Wow, what "she" wants and what "I" want, is me too! Repairing the internal/external damage and even just making some connections, gives me some hope; as I've wondered whether the short flickers of hope that I've felt infrequently were real; glimpes of the good/sweet/loving me. bewellALL cf
> I think I'm moving integration to the top of my priority list too. I stay up nights thinking myself in a circle between what "she" wants and what "I" think is the responsible thing to do. Besides, I think if I could at least integrate the youngest part of me, the attachment to my therapist might ease off and separation wouldn't be so hard. I think the 12 year old is going to take longer, but I'm starting to feel like she is a convenient holder of the misery and anger. And I feel like I need to take responsibility for my own feelings and deal with them. I can't just let it be OK because it is "her" and not "me." This probably makes no sense...
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> I love it if you would share any suggestions for reading up on integration and how to do it.
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> btw, I'm glad you see the hope. It is embodied in your child. What a precious gift.
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