Posted by Poet on November 5, 2004, at 14:15:15
I know that many others, here, have struggled or are struggling with talking about childhood abuse: sexual, physical and/or emotional.
My therapist said that I am blocking my childhood out because I don't want to go back there. She never pushes me, just said that she would never intentionally hurt me and if I am hurt talking about anything to tell her.
I kept telling her my childhood wasn't that bad, but in other sessions I have told her some of the bad things, so she knows it isn't true. She told me that she thinks that my brother did some really bad things to me. And that I don't like the idea of bringing them back into my present life.
I first admitted that is true (it is) but then denied anything happened to me. I know she doesn't believe me, she's said many times that I am in denial to protect myself.
I can't say that talking about what happened will hurt me as I won't talk about it. Unfortunately I think about it, now more than ever, and that means carrying it with me everywhere.
How do you do it? How do you talk about bad things from childhood? I am going to try and bury it all again (and again and again) but I know that won't work in the long term.
Poet
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