Posted by crushedout on October 22, 2004, at 17:07:55
In reply to Re: Need Advise, posted by Rigby on October 22, 2004, at 16:30:42
Oh, I'm sort of okay. I have some pretty serious ups and downs and I'm at a point in my life where I'm really longing for things that I'm "supposed" to have now (house, money, family, stuff) but I'm not there yet, and it's hard.As for my T, I really can't figure out what's going on with her. I do feel like maybe I don't completely trust her (and haven't in a long time) and that I should probably find someone else, but I don't feel sure enough about that to actually make the move. Especially since I'm still really attached to her. I guess I'm still in love but it's hard to tell. It's the weirdest freakin, most unsatisfying, frustrating, painful kind of "in love" I've ever experienced in my life. And intellectually I can start to believe that I might not even *like* being in a relationship with her if I had the chance to. But unintellectually I really don't give a sh*t -- I just want to try it more than I want anything else on earth.
So, basically, I'm in this horrible kind of limbo in every way and my life just kind of sucks. But thanks for asking.
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