Posted by shrinking violet on September 9, 2004, at 18:16:21
In reply to Re: Have You Ever Made Your T Cry?, posted by daisym on September 9, 2004, at 18:01:16
Hm, I'm not actually sure. A few times I thought I noticed tears in her eyes. Once, a few months ago, I showed her some artwork, and as she was looking at one she paused for a long while, ran her hand over the page a few times, and her face sort of started to contort. I was just about to mention it to her, ask if she was okay, but then she turned the page and seemed to compose herself. So I was never sure if she was really on the verge of crying, or if I was just imagining. A couple of sessions ago, she was reading some writing of mine, and I was talking about how it isnt fair that some people who deserve children never get them, and some who dont deserve them do. I specifically mentioned her, how innately nurturing and warm she is, and how a child (um, me lol) would have been so very lucky to have had her for a mother and could have benefited from a relationship with her. Well, she read that and called me a "dear woman" and then she looked up and said that I was the sweetest person she had ever met, and I could have sworn I saw her eyes tear up and her voice might have broken a bit. But then she kept talking and seemed okay, so then I wasnt sure. Either she's REALLY good at composing herself very quickly, or I'm seeing things that arent there.
In a weird way, I almost want to make her really cry, at least once. Maybe then I'll know she really does care, or that the things I tell her do matter as much as she says. But maybe that's just a selfish wish.
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