Posted by pantt on September 9, 2004, at 14:27:41
In reply to I don't know, I feel like I've made him into this, posted by Susan47 on September 9, 2004, at 13:34:16
Susan I'm sorry you're having such a horrible time. I do understand. Do you think he would see you again if that's what you want? He talked to you on the phone didn't he? Did he close the door for good when you stopped seeing him? What reason did he give? I don't think you should take the blame for his decisions and if you weren't able to work with him when you were seeing him do you think this new insight would make it possible now? Would you be able to take a risk and ask him if you can come back? I know I'm probably not helping but I do sympathise with your pain. I take you VERY seriously and think you deserve to be treated that way by everyone including yourself.
rejecting person who either (1) thinks my trials and tribulations are funny, so treats them cavalierly, or (2) feels like nothing he ever does is right so gives up.
> So what the he**. I'm having a rough day I feel weak I phoned him at his office and he sounds like, quite normal and happy, so I'm so so so relieved about that. I was so afraid he was hating me from frustration and anger that I was this impossible wench. Ogod I don't know why I said that. What the he** is a wench anyway? A wench is a woman you don't take seriously; she's meant to have fun with only.
> Omygod I see something here; I hate my f**88ing self the say I was perceived when I was a child, the way I'm so weak now, I'm so so so weak, why am I strong one day and weak the very next?>Aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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