Posted by fallsfall on December 17, 2003, at 7:36:57
The topic in therapy right now is very, very hard. So hard that I don't know what we talked about last Thursday. Monday we tried to figure out what it was that we talked about that was so upsetting to me. When I left he told me to "Put it away" until I see him on Thursday. He thinks that what I was doing to "work on it", to think about it wasn't being productive. So I put it away. I have pretty much been able to avoid thinking about the specific topic - I do know how to put that away. But the anxiety bleeds through. I did some Xmas shopping yesterday - well I spent 3 hours walking through stores, only really bought 2 things. Couldn't focus, couldn't decide, was too tired to walk.
Picked up my daughter and had her drive home (she's learning to drive, this was the first time in the dark and there's a little snow and ice still on the roads. It was a definate comment on my ability to drive to think we'd be safer with her driving). When we got home I went straight to my bed and lay down. I literally couldn't move (even though I wasn't comfortable).
I as scared. I am so foggy. I am so sad.
I can bury the topic, but I can't bury the feelings. Any suggestions?
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