Posted by Pfinstegg on November 13, 2003, at 22:44:01
In reply to Re: Connecting and Taking In.... » Pfinstegg, posted by Dinah on November 13, 2003, at 22:07:42
This is the first time I got really angry. But, as you could probably tell, the only part of me that could do it was the little girl in a daze, who could hardly think about what was happening, and instead projected all the blame onto him- HE was to blame for not being the *right* therapist, and for doing and saying everything wrong-or so it seemed at the time, although looking back I know he wasn't doing a thing other than doing his work well. When that was going on, I couldn't think my way out of a paper bag, but he was able to keep thinking clearly for both of us.
The other thing that seems odd to me now is that just as I was allowing myself to begin to feel angry, I wrote here about how much I disliked his office, and how his clothes were too loud. But now that I have begun to deal with the little girl and her rage, I find things I like in his office- one painting in particular. And where are the offensive clothes? Did I imagine them? Now he seems to be wearing dark, conservative clothes, and looking good! Oh, my goodness.
I'm so glad to be through this rage and disorientation for the moment, and you are right- those moments of connection are priceless. It feels like they are what makes us well, doesn't it?
Pfinstegg
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