Posted by ironic on February 2, 2010, at 19:38:50
In reply to Re: My Story » ironic, posted by Deneb on October 10, 2009, at 20:29:08
Well, for those of you who gave their support, I am very thankful and grateful for. I am sorry to say I have had no break through, and am still in so much pain over this. I just can't find it in me to forgive myself, then again, I don't feel I should be able to. I am seeing a new therapist, I have seen her about 3 times now, and so far, all I have done for each hour is cry. Each time I tell myself I am not going to cry, but once the door closes and she looks at me, I break. She has made me an appointment to see the med. dr., which scares me even more, I don't want to be drugged up, but I realize I have been on the same anti-depressant now for almost 3 years, and it obviously is not working. I am also working on my PTSD, I am writing a journal of my childhood(which is a whole other story), but it has made me a disaster, I am not sure I should even be digging in my past if it is going to cause these feelings and emotions. What can I say, I think I am now a bigger mess than I felt I was to begin with.
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