Posted by ClearSkies on August 24, 2007, at 21:08:56
In reply to Insecure, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 24, 2007, at 14:25:12
> Am I good enough to hop back into academia?
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> I'm feeling pretty strange about my decision to go back to school part time. Ambivalence has been manifested in me not answering emails from my recommendation letter-writer. Me missing deadlines. Me deciding to have transcript sent regular vs. express mail.
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> I dunno. Hope things work out. or do I? I *could* work full-time this year and hope that I get in next year. What would I do though. I feel that PhD is all nice and everything but i have no job experience, and I can't find anything in my field that opens before 2008. damn damn damn.
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> is this a selfesteem issue. oh whatever.
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> -Ll
Oh course this belongs here. I read all sorts of doubts that you have about your abilities and perhaps your desires (?) to pursue them. Maybe you're just burned out from too much schoolin' for now?I can repeat to you what my T tells me every single time she sees me - be gentle with yourself. Seems I tell it to all my friends here, because we all seem to be so good at beating ourselves up with one stick or another. Which is what helped land us in therapy in the first place.
But, I know you're really good with lists. How about some pros and cons for the vigorous pursuit of more school. That might help you work out what it is you're wanting to do versus what it is you think you're expected to do. And then there's the question of what would be the healthiest choice for LlurpsieNoodle? Perhaps seeing all your choices written out would take some of the angst out of what you're seeing as your procrastination.
cs
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