Posted by mattye on September 24, 2006, at 11:42:17
I am currently in a great relationship with a very loving, generous, and patient man. (I'm a guy too... we are gay) This is by far the most healthy and caring relationship I have been in.
I just have one major problem, though. My boyfriend is a performer. He dances in a vegas style celebrity impersonation show at a very popular and busy nightclub every saturday. He also has a lot of other cool things going on in his life. He is an assistant cheerleading coach at a high school and he is an assistant show choir director at another high school. He is a great singer too. Oh yeah, he has like a gazillion friends and can barely step out of the apartment without running into someone he knows. He always knows the right things to say and he is always charming.
I am currently unemployed after getting fired from my latest cubicle job (IT helpdesk). I am looking for a career change because I absolutely HATE the IT field. I am also a ceramic artist, which is frustrating, because I pour my heart into my work and I work so hard, but no one seems to really care. Also, I am a recovering heroin addict.
I am trying to get used to the constant comments like "Your boyfriend is so talented -or- your bf is so hot -or- let's go see his show again!
I know this is self-centered, but every time I hear this I shrink a little more. I love my boyfriend, but I feel like I am living in his shadow. If we were the brady bunch, he would be Marcia and I would be Jan. Remember when Jan said "Marcia Marcia Marcia!"? That's how I feel . . . like all the time.
Should I just find a way to accept being eclipsed by my lover? What should I do?
poster:mattye
thread:688663
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