Posted by Racer on July 25, 2006, at 20:55:49
In reply to Identity? Is this about finding yourself?, posted by Declan on July 25, 2006, at 19:18:49
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> I wish I had something more to say. Anyone else got stuff to say on the subject of identity?
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> DeclanI don't know what I wanted to say when I clicked the Reply button. I guess I wanted to add my voice to the question, although I have no lack of identity -- I do have a lack of confidence in my identity, though...
How to explain this? I am me most strongly when I'm alone. That "me" is the one I think of myself as being, the one that I show to my best friends, the one that I try to show in the rest of the world. But sometimes, when I'm frightened mostly, I can't find myself. Instead, I get either the frightened child I used to be, or the frightened adult I've sometimes been. And I don't feel quite so much like myself. Does that make sense? It feels like emotional vertigo, is the best I can describe it. I'm even literally off balance, if I'm standing up at the time.
So, my identity is there. I know who I am. But I can't hold on to my confidence in myself when I'm faced with certain kinds of conflict. In those cases, I get dizzy, and turn into a miserable, frozen, terrified child. I guess it's safe to say that she's part of my identity, but not a part I want to spend time with...
Anyone else have anything to say?
And Declan? Maybe if you ask yourself who you are when you're alone? (I forget: how old are you? That might be part of the problem -- I know I wasn't all that secure in my identity until I was in my late 20s...)
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