Posted by rjlockhart37 on April 6, 2023, at 21:20:31
its been a while since i've posted, things are better, for about 3-4 months i went through hell with disturbed thoughts. I never understand why this started happened, as some disorder. But I've prayed for hours in seclusion, i got prayed for by pastors and people i know, but there was no such help. I was disturbed with these voices, and these intruding thoughts that were torment. And i want to drive to state hospital, and admitting into. But i didn't do that, they could not make the thoughts go away, probaly just put me on lorazepam and haloperidol, to block out. I'm on lithium, i went from 1200mg for about couple weeks, then had another disturbance, went to my doctor and was put back on zyprexa 20mg, It does help with some things, but the only relief i got was from praying intensely for hours, weeks. It's faith, and resorting to god, asking him to redeem you from sin. But anyways, currently medications : prozac, lamictal, lithium, and zyprexa, im on high doses, expet for prozac. So, i've been really depressed, and can't have enough energy to post ob babble. I don't know want to explain much more, it's burdening. All i can, thought disturbances have gone down, i'm less dreaded about them happening. It was just by, faith, and devote time to god, for deliverance. My doctor is starting me on Vraylar to replace zyprexa, It's a partial agonist to dopamine receptors, but it's antagonize if dopamine levels go past certain point. I asked about rexulti, but i read rexulti is equally an partial agonist to certain serotonin sites, and some dopamine. Vraylar is much more selective to dopamine. My dopamine levels have disappeared over the pasat months. Hoefully anything will get me out of this dark depression. I just wanted to post, thank you for reading, at least i can send message out to the net about what's going on. End of log
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