Posted by Lou Pilder on June 29, 2015, at 17:33:22
In reply to i think fetzima and latuda, posted by b2chica on June 29, 2015, at 14:46:47
> are two more that i can soon put on my 'did not work' list..
> i am just beside myself with frustration and misery.
>
> she's taking me off latuda (i'm down to 20mg) and have slightly more energy throughout the day.
> i'm starting 60mg fetzima tomorrow, but to be honest I'm not really noticing anything major happening here. ...at all.
>
> i am finding myself in a very confusing state as of late. i have brief thoughts of worthlessness to the point of thoughts of 'offing self', however i know that is not what i want. i have reasons to be here, things i need to do....yet i have no desire to do them, attempt them nor do i really care if i achieve anything...every. that and i can only seem to see my failures in life... EVERYTHING, from major mistakes to little ones.
> i was actually thinking of this as i was driving home from dr. appt, and i wasn't paying attention to my speed and had some guy shake his hand and scream at me to 'slow down'... so of course i realized what an absolute HORRID offense i just committed and how i really shouldn't be allowed to live. ..
> yes., that is where i'm at.
> when i write it, it logically sounds ludicrous, yet... the emotion is there and not controllable.
> i know this is all the disease, but what a horrid life this seems to be these days.b2,
You wrote,[...I am besides myself with frustration and misery...in a very confusing state...thoughts of worthlessness...no desire...nor do I really care...only seem to see my failures...I really shouldn't be allowed to live...what a horrid life this seems to be...].
poster:Lou Pilder
thread:1080060
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