Posted by johnLA on September 22, 2014, at 3:37:52
In reply to Re: thnx so much scott :) a few more ?'s... » johnLA, posted by SLS on September 1, 2014, at 18:55:44
well i have done 7 weeks of deep tms.
i made it to 31 out of 35 days.
this is the most activity i have done in over four years since my depression started.
has it worked? yes. 100%? no.
i start a m/w/f 3 times a week taper later today. this may go on indefinitely. the doc has said that i should see continued improvement during the taper. the taper could last as long as 12 more weeks.
she does have 1 patient who comes in, i think, 2 times a week continuously.
i have been showering more. made my goal of getting to the beach 10 times this summer. thinking about work too. what exactly i am not sure. i have been much more social. music really sounds good. not all the time. but, especially on days of treatments.
less time coming to babble. ;)
there has been improvement.
my scores on the depression intake have dramatically decreased. i think when i give her my scores later today i will probably score in the 'mildly' depressed category.
all good with that.
i couldn't give you a % on how improved i am. sometimes i have absolutely no depression. i mean zero. other times, i had it bad and did not make treatment. still, the last 7 weeks have had the highest # of good days/moments that i have experienced since my depression began.
still some sleep issues. some bad dreams. cutting klonopin to 1.5mg per night. taking occasional remeron to sleep. really want off the klonopin. have felt no real anxiety dropping to 1.5mg over the last several weeks. wondering if this is also giving me some boost.
still a fight.
i was hoping for more 'magic.' but, i need to realize i am not done with treatment so far and that i really have gotten better from the time i started.
i also think i will be posting less here. i need to break some habits. this is a good place. but, i literally need to stop spending so much time talking, researching, thinking about depression. i think a start will be to get off the computer and get outside more. this has been happening the last 7 weeks.
i hope i am making sense?
i believe this treatment works. i will go 3 times a week for the rest of my life if i have to.
i also know some promising new things are hopefully coming in the future. i feel; optimistic. in fact i will do one more post i found listing some things that may be coming out in the next 1 to 3 years or so..
if you can afford it, or if your insurance covers it, i can highly recommend deep tms.
godspeed good health to all of us.
john
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