Posted by hyperfocus on February 10, 2013, at 16:35:20
In reply to Re: Asperger's vs. psychosis » hyperfocus, posted by rjlockhart37 on February 8, 2013, at 23:55:20
> -yes, the heavy duty meds are not really heavy duty for me....they lost their effect, you don't understand...the only thing that sometimes will work is the zyperxa at night...after i put it under my tongue...nasty....and the Nuvigil. I've been on worse heavy duty meds...like Dexedrine 60mg spansules with Xanax 2mg in the morning....xanax at 12pm and another at bedtime ... that is what you call big time heavy meds, and before that i was taking Temazepam WITH xanax at night, both at maxed out doses. It was nice for the time....but it did come to an end. And i have to respect that, and admit the doctor didnt want to treat me anymore...and sent me to a psych ward....they ripped me off ALL my meds. That was the worst time ever in my life, the withdrawl was horrible and they refused to treat the withdrawl....only used vistiril and zyprexa...horrible time...
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The effect stimulants and benzos can have on you in the short-term can be significant but this is simply not sustainable -- psych meds and your brain just don't work like that. You need long-term solutions for your psych issues -- relying on those meds was going to lead you down a very dark path towards the 'heaviest' meds like meth and opiates. It was probably a very good thing you withdrew from them when you did. I know having ADD and anxiety and depression are a huge obstacle to living but you have to look at what you can do yourself to get better -- which is a lot. There's no perfect med combo -- heavyweight or otherwise -- that will get you better. I've done the whole under the tongue and mashing up meds in a glass of milk so the protective coating comes off and they get absorbed faster thing. But I had to realize that even the bestest most awesomest long-lasting med wasn't going to do anything but a small fraction of what I needed to cope with my problems.> \\its more like tolerance to the meds...this all started in 2010, slowly losing their effect...and noticed even coffee would not take effect. So right now...i don't know what its causing, i pray to God everynight...well jesus christ...and i've been doing it and nothing...but there is something that is undetected and not showing up on tests...because these meds...the prozac they don't work like they did, i keep saying this...they lost their effect. But hopefully....spirit forces will do something...if its jesus christ-holy spirit or lucifer's boys....right now i just need some relief.
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I think tolerance to psych meds -- poop out, stopped and restarted meds that no longer work -- is a really complex issue, partly physiological and part psychological. You know a lot of critical brain functions can migrate from one part of the brain to the next. It's possible the mechanisms and even locations of depression can change in a person in a short space of time and meds that worked before can stop for seemingly no reason. But rj the issues aspies face are life-long: just like ADD meds simply can't cure it totally.> Yes, antipsychosis meds...they get dopamine out of the places where there too much...see my psychosis is not really considered the real thing...religious obsession will become a preoccupation and it will turn into nasty feeling like spirit forces are watching....not to tell when there's an actual sign of their presence...things moving, random couisidences, telepathy....i was originally reading on spirit guides a while back...and decided to write the arcangel Gabriel a letter for guidance from God...layed in the bed...this image of a blondhaired pale faced with wings.. popped up and conversed with my thoughts...said gabriel was his brother...but he though he'd be a guiding force....and i didnt have to ask who...i knew who he was....its like telepathy with spirit beings...just mental junk that has no sources to back it up. That's just what started this whole event of religious awareness of other forces. It's not really a psych problem. I know its real.
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For me spirituality is a big part of trying to recover -- no human being goes through a protracted painful long-term period of adversity without speculating on large issues. I just want to tell you that pain and fear and stuff belong to this world. And whatever evil does to you or deprives you of, it can only affect the things you hold on to in this world. Things that are in your spirit -- who you are and all your true beliefs -- nothing or nobody like lucifer and his boys can touch.
> -the rejection and distant social cues...that is one of my deeprest pains...i've put it away because its not something to go run and tell someone to solve it...i have to figure how to handle...rejection from people that loved me....its not their fault...and i have figure out what im doing wrong...i do have nights when i lay in the bed and have emotional moments under the pillow....but you know...dwelling on stuff like that causes more sorrow, and then it grows...and then other people who care makes them filled with sorrow....i don't to do that...i don't want any sorrow at all. No burden, no pity parties....even though it does come once and while....
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Yes you are the only one who can figure it out, but at the same time it's really important to understand you have embedded hypersensitivities about relationships and deficits in social communication and emotional intelligence that are hardwired into your brain, and the steps that you can take to cope with them. That's what science and labels like Asperger's gives us -- the ability to discover more about ourselves and what we have in common with others and how we can help ourselves.>
im sorry i didnt post back to your post on the video games...sorry about that...ill be scrowling down the boards and have no motivation to talk....have to force myself for just politeness.
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I'm the same way most of the time and have been for most of my life. I had to learn that I actually need to be doing like at least three things at once with the TV going and music playing, to keep myself stimulated and sustain my attention. The TCA I take has a significant NE component and I've started drinking a lot of tea and sometimes coffee that also helps.> It is difficult .... im not 100perct sure i have aspie but ... i hide because i always am scared of being discrimated against...it terrifies me to even think of someone pushing my buttons and then rejecting me....and the effect from the fear is sorrow. So gotta get those both cancelled out.
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There's a huge realization now that aspies and all people with autism spectrum and ADD conditions have and have always had a huge amount to contribute to society and their differences are actually strengths. You know people like Steve Jobs and lots of programmers or musicians or artists had to struggle with the same things you did. I mean for everything you're deficient in you more than make up for it in strengths and advantages. In today's world people who think differently and easily come up with different solutions to things are the most coveted workers. You have a lot to contribute to this world and I know you would never do to anyone what others may have done to you.
C-PTSD: social phobia, major depression, dissociation. 20 yrs duration.
Asperger's Syndrome.
Currently: 150mg amitriptyline single dose at night. 75mg Lyrica occasionally.
Significantly improving.
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