Posted by stargazer2 on May 12, 2010, at 11:59:21
In reply to Re: Started Vyvanse today/HR..FB..Chu, posted by Leo33 on May 11, 2010, at 14:09:31
As you know if you have depression or another diagnosis tht affects your moods, it may seem one way when in actuality, it is very different. I have always been a master of deceipt and I'm sure that is why I have gotten farther than many who give up and say I'm done. As long as I'm not flat out, I will try and find answers that can help me be part of the human experience, although I have a predispositon to shun others, as I blame them for my situation, as I find interacting with people particularly stressful and antagonistic.
Many others may have given up sooner but as long as I'm alive, I feel I have find someway to improve my outlook and deficiencies.
I am my own worst critic too and this is also part of my problem. I have pretended I was OK for years before it was fashionable to see a psychiatrist, which I did only after having depression for at least 10 years (late 20's).
I still pretend alot as I'm sure many of us have to to fit in and move forward in life. I'm just trying to be able to cope with reality which right now is starting to get shakey again. I was working for 2 years and was on automatic pilot and now that I'm off that merry go round, reality is getting close again.
I guess working keeps your mind off of it more than on, so at least if you can work that is a blessing.
Now back to finding answers, although I am acutely aware there may be none for me, as so often there was not.
Thanks for writing your views of your impression of me. For so many here, we might be able to write well (some here are very bright and write incredibly well, but are unable to work due to their illnesses) so the written word does not speak to someones functional abilities...which is the standard by which we all are judged in this life...What is the first thing people ask you when you meet them for the first time?
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