Posted by zonked on May 8, 2010, at 21:28:55
Hey everybody,
This might be a little long - and I apologize about that. Honestly, I do feel like only some folks on this board will even come CLOSE to understanding me, and I have to let off some steam...
I'm back on Nardil 45mg b.i.d. - from 130mg parnate. No, that's not what I was prescribed - I had to adjust it myself; and ran out early.
Did it work? Yes. It also made me hypomanic, and the really screwed up thing was that 90mg did nothing and there was no "middle ground" between ineffectiveness and hypomanic reaction. (Not needing sleep, SUPER social, life seems great, creativity increase, productive thoughts and planning...)
Ended up filling an old Nardil RX, 45mg b.i.d. dosing. FYI, the reason I went off Nardil in the first place (I took this before ever trying Parnate) was because it lost effectiveness. It's been six days on Nardil now and it's not doing much other than keeping myself out of the hospital. (No, I didn't do a proper washout, so sue me. I've never had a MAOI reaction of any sort.)
Since I've tried pretty much every antidepressant available, and only responded to the MAOIs (plus, ONE round of zoloft - first AD I ever took, ten years ago), and taking a "normal" amount of Parnate is useless, I am considering going on Marplan.... as soon as ten days have elapsed since my last Parnate dose. I am in between pdocs right now; I moved back to San Francisco from the suburbs because the psychiatric care is better here; I won't be assigned a regular psychiatrist for a few weeks. I'll have to march into the crisis clinic and I am so frightened I will get an uncaring jerk who wants to put me on an SSRI, tricyclic or something else that hasn't worked in the past...
But I have to do it. Anyway, I want to know from folks who have taken marplan:
1. How long to take effect, and what dosage?
Lately all I can do is watch things like THIS:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qsaamq0E964and cry my eyes out... For once in the last two to three years, I want to be able to see life through clear glasses - not rose colored, and not grey either... I guess I should be glad I'm still alive, and a part of me [based on having a hypomanic response to Parnate] knows that EVENTUALLY, I'll get the right combo of meds and be able to return to work and enjoy life again, but getting there is so maddening... I have lost so much of my young life to this disorder...
thx
zonked
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