Posted by manic666 on May 5, 2010, at 7:11:38
to beat the monster you have to be one with him//you no when he is comming for you,the tell tale sign,s,i.e brain numbing, temper, fatiuge,you get the drift//i have been in this battle plenty of times//sometimes life threatning,he is one hell off a bastard to take on//but i have just took him on ,face to face,no prisoners type battle///no change of meds,no feeling sorry for myself,been there before//what this sadistic bastard need is nukeing an fast///now i dont say try this as it dangerouse??not for me as i have no issues with alchol//im not a recovering alcholic , in fact i dont drink much at all//but for this battle an anything to keep me from hospital//i hit him with the therory whatever you do to me i will do to you///the depression was doing me bigtime//so i nuked him with alchol/i wont say how much or you would faint///i was looking on getting the hour of bliss in a day an night of pain///but that is all you need to regain sanity///now i have a lost of lost days in the last few weeks,but i wanted to be out of it//let him try an nuke a brain that is being nuked already// there is a lot of vomiting in this method,but i could feel his grip loosening,i i was starting to get ill with alchol//which ment the depression was pissed with me as he could not break through mt alchol nuked brain//so he kinda stepped back from the battle//not waved the white flag but put me on hold for a while till the next time//now im of the booze leveling out an no med change,no real family upset//they have seen it all before an worse,it maby wont ever work again as depression finds always comes up with new idea,s//i wasnt barred from any bars as i am well nown for lets call it off the wall behavour//i am back with my buddies an family normal as i can be for a nut job// no family judgment there just glad im back for another stab at life,its killing me i loose a littlemore every time//but there is never a dull moment//im do hospital next week//but will tell my shrink nothing//i tackled a blip in my life on my own,they would have changed my meds to something totally usless an changed my pesonality//i dont want to sit like a veg,i actually likemy nut job status//its painful an cool as well//i could have taken hands full of benzo,s all day an tried that but i already done that one. beside,s bozze for me is easy apart from the vomiting
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