Posted by antigua3 on February 3, 2009, at 20:02:11
In reply to Re: Depersonalization and Effexor... » Jim45, posted by SLS on February 3, 2009, at 16:14:43
When I first started seeing my pdoc he lowered the boom and said I would probably be on meds for life. Why? Re-occuring bouts of severe depression triggered about every seven years or so, if I'm counting correctly. Pdoc cited the statsitcs of my increased likelhood for repeated bouts of depression, at stronger duration, leading me to "you will probably be on meds for the rest of your life."
Two years later, I'm off my recent anti-depresent Cymbalta and tapering off Lyrica and Klonopin. I know I'm trying to prove my pdoc wrong, but I'm already wondering about the price I might be paying. Am I getting depressed again? Do I feel badly again? I don't know. I wanted off the drug because I didn't like the anxiety it was causing, and plus, I wanted to prove that I was well enough not to need it anymore. stupid, right? self-defeating for sure.
Why or why does the thought of being on meds for the rest of my life make me feel awful? It's stupid; they are something I need to survive, just as someone else needs something every day.
Being told that the depressive episodes will become more frequent and more severe is frightening.
I, too, wish there were a test to determine at what point it is safe to discontinue treatment, and also one that would say, "yep, it's time to get back on the meds," without having to go through the train wreck getting there.
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