Posted by sam K on September 29, 2008, at 11:53:37
In reply to Re: thanks » sam K, posted by Tony P on September 28, 2008, at 4:25:37
I feel like crap, Im having suicidal thoughts lately (but I know they will go away). Im just so messed up. If I told anyone the truth then they'd think I was crazy (which I am lol). So I probably shouldnt care. Here we go I will say whats going on in my head lately.
For some reason I get attatched to ideas very easily(why I dont know, help!). A few days ago I ran into a book at the library called "feeling fat, frazzled or" I don't know the rest. sorry. But anyways I have been having palpitations lately. My heart rate is low and I just feel fat and lazy. This is where it gets funky. When my heart rate is low I begin to worry that I will become fat. So I used stimulants to keep my heart rate at a decent rate. Then these stimulants in return cause me anxiety and irriability. So its a freakin shi**y day everyday. Everday.. god da**, is me trying to find a solution to my problems. And I never get it right.
Something else thats bothering me is my multivitamin. I first thought Lamictal was causing increased appetite but I noticed when I didnt take my vitamin I wasnt as hungry. So here I am obsessing about some stupid vitamin situation. If I take a vitamin I become tired, if I dont I fear I will become deficiant. WOW. Do I have OCD? probably. :(
So I avoid zinc, because I think it increases my appetite. Sounds crazy.. doesnt it.
I cant figure out a solution and Im drving myself crazy.
What do you think is going on? I will start revealing the truth and get opinions because Im very desperate.
Im on Lamictal 125 mg for depression and mood swings. I think I have some Bipolar issues and I have an eating disorder. Do I need an antidepressant? I find them hard to tolerate.And by the way, thank you Tony P, I feel like someone really cares, thank you!!!!!
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