Posted by gardenergirl on November 15, 2007, at 7:55:30
I'm back into a full-blown depressive episode. I'm sure it's both biologically and psychologically/situational related. The bio part I can address fairly easily, I hope.
Anyway, I ran out of Provigil a few weeks ago. I didnt' worry about it because I wasn't so sure it was doing that much anymore. But it must be, surely. I've been in such a cognitive fog since, and my sleep/wake cycle is back to the mess it was before I started getting better.
Last time I saw my pdoc, about six weeks ago, we decided to try dropping Lamictal since I had such a positive response to Lithium. We wondered if the Lamictal was redundant. I went from 150mg to 75mg for about two weeks, and then I stopped. That was about a week ago. I don't know if feeling depressed is a withdrawal effect of Lamictal that will pass in time, or if I really did need Lamictal. I see pdoc again in about 2 weeks, though I'm tempted to call him. The Provigil shipped from my mail order pharmacy today. I probably won't get it before I leave for a weekend trip, but starting next week I can get back on it and see how I feel.
It all stinks, though. Depression stinks. I hate feeling so debilitated and "useless". I hate that it affects my marriage. And my work. Hate it.
Hate it hate it hate it.
Any feedback, comments, support and/or suggestions welcome.
Thanks,
gg
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