Posted by Sandra62 on March 24, 2007, at 16:59:45
In reply to Re: Who among you know a lot about neurotransmitters ?, posted by Marc Boucher on March 24, 2007, at 14:59:04
WOW Marc, what a fascinating story. You seem to already know alot about neurotransmitters and I have learned from you and from other's posts. Let me say, I'm so sorry that you are dealing with this but I can see by your determination and wisdom you are going to get to the bottom of this once and for all. I'm no help to you on your question but I felt compelled to respond to your post because I felt like I was reading of my own life issue with respect to how you felt when you had a high sex drive and that your girlfriend must feel the same way too.
11 years ago I met my now husband (bless his heart for sticking it out with me all these years) and I had not been diagnosed properly, I have Bipolar which I only found out about maybe 2 years ago now. Anyways, I was extremely hypersexual and found myself having ruminating thoughts that my boyfriend was looking at other women and finding them more attractive then me. I was a gym freak and was in perfect shape and considered beautiful. No matter, I was convinced that there were threats. I went to a GP for some minor issue, I forget what now, but she took an interest in exploring a little about what was going on in my life. I shared my issue and she diagnosed me with obsessive thoughts. I guess a form of OCD? She prescribed Paxil which as many of us know will kill your sex drive and it did. Along with that the crippling jealousy left. Now being Bipolar I started to rapid cycle (which I knew nothing about then) and would fly into uncontrollable rage episodes and reckless behaviour and then deep depression. Sometimes during the course of one day. I quit the Paxil, and again as many of know would happen, I had what does the pharmaceutical company call it...dicontinuation syndrome?...and I had to deal with the hell of withdrawal then. And subsequently I returned to having a high sex drive and with it came the rumininating thoughts that my boyfriend was sure to be fantasizing about other women. It sure was crippling wasn't it?
Now years later, many diagnoses later, and many meds later I now have a super low libido and sometimes anorgasmia depending on the med cocktail 'o the day. Also could be my age, I'm 45. My PDOC is now working closely with me to recapture my sex drive, along with it my zest for life and super creativity that I lost taking AP's. I used to write songs all the time and was highly active as a musician and it would bring me joy. Now I haven't picked up my guitar, touched my keyboard, written, or sung for ages. I feel like a shell of my former self. Anyways that it all another story.
I just wanted to acknowledge your pain and your quest for uncovering the root of your issue as a young man who wants his virility back - you deserve it! I wish you much success!
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