Posted by mike lynch on June 20, 2006, at 9:33:17
I just recently came off prozac, and as the med slowly depleted from my system, I noticed my MED personality and mindset slowly erradicated while my true, unaltered personality began to emerge. This was relieving, in that I was finally becoming my original self, though as time went on I've noticed many traits that have changed since I came off meds, some in a good way others in a bad way.
An aspect of it is the difference between my personality, but an even bigger issue maybe the discrepency with my cognitive ability on and off meds.
A notable discrepency that I became adjusted to on the meds, that is somewhat troublesome while off, is speech and language. I don't know if anyone has experienced this, but when I'm on an ssri, both my speech and language improve immensely, my vocabulary is more extensive and I am just able to articulate ideas with much more ease. ( I know you may think I sound articulate hear, but you can't edit your live speech before saying it a million times in a converastion..I have to stall and truly think to reach my set standard in lanaguage online..)
When I'm off the meds, it's such a huges difference.. I have difficulti expressing myself, and sometimes have a hard time pronouncing words. This is just frustrating, because I became so use to and felt so greatfull for my ability to truly express my feelings, but now it just seems to be hindered. Also, the return of possible anxiety isn't an issue that's causing this.
I'm curious why this part of me would be complimented due to the usage of ssri's, and if maybe there's away to reap similar benefits off natural alternatives.
Other differences in my personality include, not having as much to talk about, it seems when I was on the med I always had some stupid story to tell, I just had all these crazy ideas, and that seems to have waned as I am coming off. I also almost seemed brighter, and more sophisticated while on the meds, it almost seemed my brain power increased significantly. This seems great, but there were so many cons to, it seemed like I could have fact based conversations involving splicing atoms or something, but really when it came to regular conversations I just seemed retarded and had nothing to say unless it involved just reiterating facts , and arguments, which is why I mostly talked about politics.
I seem a little slower now then how I was while I was on the meds, not sure if I just have to adjust to being back ff meds or what. It's just wierd how much my personality and mind settings change when I come off the meds, it's like you've been on the meds so long that, your personality while on the meds has become the real you. I use to debate a lot about politics, and was able to illustrate my stances and arguments perfectly, now it's just going to be wierd conversing with these same people and see the confusion in there face when I struggle with articulating concepts that I was able to explain with such ease before
Overall, it seems for at least now that life without meds feels more colorful. There are just some things I am having trouble adjusting to.
poster:mike lynch
thread:659114
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