Posted by Racer on May 15, 2006, at 12:29:04
In reply to Re: what else could my doc prescribe after these?, posted by JaclinHyde on May 15, 2006, at 12:01:27
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> Racer I know what you mean about the dietary restrictions being a pain in the *ss BUT which would you rather have.....depression and anxiety or cheddar cheese? I mean when you think about it is the loss of these small number of foods really that big of a deal if you can feel well again?Thanks, Jaclin, but there's a little more to it: I already don't eat a lot of things, which is part of my anorexia. Whenever I think about going on an MAOI, part of what's on my mind is that it would make it so much easier to restrict my eating, and thus lose weight. My T knows this, and has already said that she's against the idea of me trying an MAOI, which I'm sure she's already discussed with my pdoc.
Also, though, a lot of the foods that are "safe" foods for me contain prohibited ingredients. If I removed those from my diet, there really wouldn't be a whole lot left, which would make it even easier for me to go back to full on restricting, since there wouldn't be much pleasure in eating. While part of me longs for that sort of excuse, another part of me says it really isn't worth it.
And right now, I'm experiencing a period of increased depression and hopelessness, which colors my expectations of antidepressants. I look back at my experiences so far, and none of them look like they'd make those additional restrictions worthwhile. You know? I do feel guilty for saying that I would give up the potential benefits in order to feel better, but I also have the long term picture in mind, too: I could give up those things temporarily, but that's not what we'd be talking about. Whatever I find that works for me, has to be taken indefinitely. It really has to be something that offers me adequate quality of life, for as long as I take it. Maybe it's selfish or self-defeating for me to feel this way, but that's not something I could get if I had to deal with the restrictions.
I'm glad it's working for you, though.
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