Posted by fierycelt on January 25, 2006, at 20:50:23
In reply to Re: topamax, posted by rainy on January 23, 2006, at 18:47:34
...today i was diagnosed with Bi-Polar disorder...a relief to know what was "wrong" with me all these years...I'm 39. However, this board has me COMPLETELY FREAKED OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hair loss? Loss of Balance? Loss of Cognitive Skills? Excessive Tiredness?(is this a word?) I have read the last 50 posts or so and just sat here and CRIED!!! I have gained 50 lbs on Lexapro, so I stopped that!! (was going to lose my job)
Regained my energy and started back at the gym...HELLO... NEED MY BALANCE & ENERGY. I have a job that requires me to NOT LOSE HAIR and maintain my ability to walk/dance on very HIGH HEELS...YUP I'm a "dancer"...
My cognitive skills have to be intact to "talk" to customers. At this point it is only my SHARP MIND that is making me any money at all!! I also have to be alert enough to drive 1.5 hours to work!! SEVERE weight gain hurt my money...fat & unhappy doesn't make money!!!
My doctor also prescribed Cymbalta for depression and we haven't even begun to address my ADDHD...HHHMMM my life goal...to be a pill-head *sarcasm*...
I am thinking I am better off staying "CRAZY"...at this point my life is completely in the cr*pper and this drug doesn't sound like it is going to improve it...AT ALL!!
Although I am slightly amused by the visual of me fat, bald, stupid and falling over on stage!!!
I truly admire any of you who have sucked it up and just taken Topomax...although I recognize epilepsy is far more serious than being Bi-Polar...I am sure someone out there disagrees with me...I guess it is all relative/subjective.
Anyone have any words of encouragement...tell me I have read "worst-case senarios"...and that I am completely over-reacting(typical bi-polar stuff)
I liked the advice of one individual who cautioned against the weekly increases and suggested bi-weekly increases...SLOWLY...OK works for me...sorry I don't remember your name...you should get credit...maybe Kat?!
THANK YOU...in advance
S
poster:fierycelt
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